At my Weakest I am my Strongest

People may say this is crazy, but I believe we are at our strongest point when we are at our weakest. You may ask why this is the case. The reason I hold on to this is because God moves the most in our lives when we desperately need him and decide to let go of what we want. When you let God take control you are letting the maker of the universe (the one who made you!) take the reins. Personally, it took me 17 years of my 18 years of life to figure this out haha! Since a missions trip I went on last summer, I have been having the best times of my life. I just take every day for what it is- another day to live for the glory of God and spread his word. Each moment is so precious and when you try to do it all yourself…well… you end up wasting a ton of time. And making mistakes. And feeling empty. Don’t waste that time; let God take control. When you let God take control of every facet of your life and take yourself out of the driver’s seat you will feel at peace. Of course you’re going to make mistakes and try to take back the reins sometimes… that’s because our heart is deceitfully wicked above all things as the Bible says. It is wicked for us to try to take God out of the equation and why would we? He can do so much in our lives and just transform us into people more like him.


God will work through you when you are weak. For me; I know this last week was an example of this. I work as a camp counselor and I was doing an overnight camp up in the mountains. Two of the boys in my group were the two most disrespectful 13 year-olds I have ever met. So the first three days were me trying to hold a solid line for discipline but at the same time attempting to have fun with the boys. Wednesday evening we had cabin devotions, I had just disciplined the boys, and was at the end of my rope. I honestly just cried out to God and said “Lord I need you now. Please help me because right now I am so drained and have no idea what I should do besides starting with something in Nehemiah.” Did God show up? You bet he did! He just put all these words into my mouth that weren’t mine and I talked for about 30 minutes straight. I jumped from Nehemiah to somewhere in the New Testament, to Proverbs, to Job, to my testimony and ended with the woman at the well. I can take no credit for what I said then… it was all him. At the beginning of devos I had the two naughty kids with pillows over their head, a few more not really paying attention, and just overall nobody really cares about devotions. By the end, I had every kid’s eyes riveted on me just gobbling up everything God was saying through me. It amazing to feel the strength that God gives us when we are weak.


It’s just amazing to watch what God can do. When you follow him that’s when the best things happen. One of the things I love to do is spiritual treasure hunts… you basically just go out in public and pray for people. You pray for healing of the mind and soul. I have seen people healed on the spot in both of these areas. It just takes such a leap of faith to start and it’s still really scary. I’ve been flipped off by people before… but I take it as a sign of persecution. I got persecuted for my Lord- that’s freakin’ awesome!!! Plus you never know when you plant a seed inside of someone that the next person will come and harvest.


As a camp counselor I get to see a lot of people transformed in just one week and I am continually changing as well. It’s also fantastic to hear the experiences of my friends at other camps… God is moving this summer and I pray everyone holds on to what they learned at camp this summer. Don’t let it be a mountain peak experience that you forget about… don’t forgot it. Hold onto what God has done and continue to let him change you. The word of the Lord is like a double-edged sword that pierces to bone and marrow. It goes to the heart.  At the only full week of teen camp at my camp a speaker named Brett Hollis really came out and challenged us all. After every chapel there was weeping, repenting, healing… it was absolutely insane. Sometimes it went on for an hour. At the campfire night me and some of the other counselors shared our testimonies… but told parts that we had never told anyone (or only a few people) before. There was a girl that had been legally blind in one eye all her life and the Lord let her see for one night. I loved the teens’ awe at what God did that week… I was like aww yea that’s the God we serve!!! It was really sweet for me just to relax and simply bask in God’s presence. I brought a few kids to the Lord that week and prayed with other kids about their situations. It just has been a blessing to be given this opportunity every week. My prayer skills have gotten better over the last month or so and while it doesn’t matter how great your skills are it still has been a good thing. Through his camp experience I continue to see every day that I can’t do much on my own. I am a strong person… mentally, physically, academically etc. like I’m one of those people who know that they have a bright future ahead of them and all that. God has given me all these gifts though and everything that I do is for him. He knows the plans he has for me and I just let him take the driver’s seat.  


People say that those who don’t control their life are weak… but that’s totally not true. I don’t control my life and I’m stronger than I ever have been. Jesus reigns in me and decides to use me to further his kingdom. I enjoy that a lot. I’ve been having the time of my life the last year or so. I mean it has had its hard points but God has helped me through those. I just have this joy in my heart and I can’t wait for everyday because I love living life 😀

P.S. About 2 ½ weeks and I’m headed to college. It feels so weird to be buying college books but that’s where I am right now. Can’t wait!!!   


God Protects You

So this is just out to all the people who feel they are alone in this world. I know how you feel… that has been me most of my life. Honestly, I just haven’t really fit in with many social groups and haven’t been able to keep many friends. I hadn’t shared it until I did in my testimony at camp but during my late jr high years and my early high school days I tried to take my life multiple times. I felt completely alone on this earth and just felt like nothing was going to change. A few times I got all the way prepared to commit suicide, started, then “chickened” out at the last second. The two other times I don’t know how I lived. God obviously still had plans for me and it wasn’t my time. I look these days at how much I’m blessed by God and I’m eternally grateful for his mercy. Whenever those pangs of loneliness start hitting home I just remember that God is always with me. He is the best friend I could ever ask for… for those out there who are alone, bullied, hurt etc. there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. It may hurt now but God knows what he’s doing and your life is just a small part of his beautiful plan that is the best for us. Trust that he will help you. One of my favorite sections of scripture, Psalm 139, makes a lot of points. Verses 13-16 say “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” God knows you inside and out… so trust him. He will make your life more wonderful then you ever could’ve imagined 😀

How to Treat Other People

“Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.” Romans 12:17-19


So I had my first day of work as a camp counselor today and the topic for daily devotions today was that of dealing with hard to-deal-with co-workers. Obviously, the short message can apply to more than co-workers; it can apply to anyone else that you’re having a rough time with in life. As we all know our human nature is to take revenge or the conflict into our own hands instead of letting go of it to God. We think we can solve the problem but usually we end up making it worse haha! It’s so hard to let go of… if I had to look at my life there were plenty of times I was totally in the position of being wronged and totally in the right to take revenge into my own hands. Normally I didn’t just because getting revenge is not really in my nature but the few times that I did I held NOTHING back. For those who know me it takes A LOT to make me angry; therefore, I really don’t have problems. But when somebody does enough and crosses my “line” I just go nuts… I will hold nothing back and will do the utmost I can to make problems. That is one of my major flaws and I try to walk with God everyday to mold that part of my life more into his image 🙂


On the other hand, there have been a few times where I’ve been the problem. Like I said before, it’s just not in my personality but it still happens every once in awhile. There have been times where I won’t ask for forgiveness or I hold on to a grudge and I end up hurting somebody. Speaking of grudges; just don’t have them. It sucks… all it does is hurt people. People hold onto grudges simply to swell their pride and boost their personal security levels. So try to avoid that completely- life is simpler and more enjoyable that way 🙂 If you realize you’re wrong make amends and don’t hang on to what you know isn’t right. I’d rather admit that I’m wrong and be holding on a rope than hanging by a thread of the slim rope holding on to what was wrong. That was such a great metaphor… at least I think it was. Overall, if you’re wrong admit the problem, make amends and stop hurting the other person.


Can we all agree that there are so many… well I’ll be honest here… butt-heads in life? I think we can!!! There are people who just try to be a pain; yet, God says live at peace with everyone. No matter how a person acts you have to remember that they are created in God’s image and you have to treat them that way. Be peaceful, be truthful, and don’t hurt them back… Philippians 4:8, “ Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy- think about such things.” Whatever fits this verse is what you should be showing to other people 🙂


 I honestly think that the rest of Romans 12 sums up everything we need to do. Romans 12:20-21 says, “On the contrary: ‘If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.’ Do not be overcome by evil but overcome evil with good.” Do it 🙂


P.S. Thanks to all my normal readers for being patient… I hadn’t published anything for awhile simply because I thought for a large chunk of time God was telling me to quit the blog. After a week I realized that wasn’t the path he wanted me to take, which made me happy because I love writing this blog!, and I just needed a new fire. I was really burnt out writing and I just wasn’t quite doing the blog to the best of my abilities. Thankfully, God made my burnt-out work great and showed me that I needed to take a rest. Now that I’ve had a few weeks just to sit and think I have more of a plan to where the blog is going. God hasn’t shown me the whole picture but I’ve seen some of it and I’m really excited to share with you what he puts on my heart 😀  Hope everyone’s summer is going great and enjoy the great times you have… I know I have been! For those of us who are working… try to have enough fun in between work 😉 haha jk I know we’ll all have enough fun. Peace out 😀